One of the last times I stayed awake through the night in a chemical-free zone was when my son entered the sphere. He was SO quiet that I kept checking to make sure he was still breathing. I think I can count on my hands the # of times I've stayed awake without chemical assistance of some sort, be it "you know", L.S.D., mushrooms or even good-old garden variety caffeine. This one is different though. I'm doing it to reset my clock and re-adjust so I can enjoy the days. After all, that's why I'm here, right? I slept through most of the day yesterday, almost until 2:00, and it sucked. Highlight of the day though? Walking down High Street in Hadfield with my boy and him remarking he was hungry. THEN stepping into the chippy and getting an ENORMOUS cone of fresh chips and a bottle of Lucozade and throwing down with my son. He is my life, my reason to live, and it was fucking awesome! With no sleep under my belt today I will remember to be kind, courteous and above all PATIENT to everyone around me. I will run my miles, eat HEALTHY and then FINALLY get to an A.A. meeting tonight. After that meeting I will bathe my son, read with him, and get all involved into bed nice and early. And one more thing? No matter how much he complains about it not being fair, I'm a mean Daddy, etc... He will not consume even one DROP of soda today of any kind. Milk or water, more on that later. Talk to you all very soon....
xo-pk
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